Hoose for sale...

(ok, no I didn't spell house wrong, it's a joke. Jill and Jason are the only ones who ever read here that will get it. Jill, in case you are not sure, think SMIB, LOL)

So we got a call today. We have an offer on the house!!!

Bad news: It's a low offer, over 8000 less than we are asking, which may not seem like much but we are asking that amount so we can break even w/ closing and commission fees. Plus not only are they lowballing but they want 6% of their closing costs paid with that amount, so it actually takes us to 12,000 less than we are asking and wouldn't even pay off the mortgage let alone closing costs and commission fees!! We would end up owing 4710.00!! Um yeah, not happening.

Good news: We are countering with a little higher amount (think 1900higher), none of their closing costs pd. We should be able to cover all the mtg, our closing and commission fees and only have to (maybe) pay 240. I would rather not have to pay a single solitary penny (yes that's redundant...). We could always say no and hold out longer. We could also counter a little bit higher, say 2200 higher and break completely even...

Realtor said he's going to talk to other realtor and give our counter offer. Personally I think they are getting a great!!! deal. New windows, new GFA furnace, backyard fixed up and other little updates totaling 20000, and all appliances are staying (fridge, stove, dishwasher, dryer and washer) which are easily worth another couple grand! And we are technically losing money on this deal any way we go since we break even after paying mortgage cause that 20000 was out of our pocket not financed in the mortgage, so we spend our hard earned savings to update and won't see a single penny back from it. I am disappointed about that ALOT in case you can't tell! Oh well, we knew the market is hard right now. But it still sucks. Bad.

Totally not wanting to move again either.

But, good thing coming out of this is we will all be together as a family full time again.
But, we have to find a new place to live, new school for Ethan (and he's adjusted so well to this one, I'm sad to take him out of there), new doctors including cardiologist for Ethan, change our insurance, drivers licenses, and car registrations over to MI, not to mention me not knowing a single soul up there... I think that may be my biggest fear/concern of all. All the other stuff will work itself out fairly easy, even Ethan's school. I mean there are only so many school options. I am scared of meeting new people, I have a hard time putting myself out there, I consider myself shy, I turn into a ball of nerves when I think about going a place where I know no one or have to talk to people I know very little, even now I can feel my stomach tensing and twisting and feel lightheaded!! How crazy is that?! Almost like a minor anxiety/panic attack. Weird.
The thing is when I joined Jason in NY, I was excited, first time away from home, newlywed, going to be with my hubby who I love so very much and I felt a little adventurous. When we left NY, I was scared to move to MD, I was pregnant with E and just didn't know anybody there but met some nice people including one of my BFFs Jill, and moving from there to Ohio was hard for a different reason. I didn't want to leave her but I wasn't scared cause I had family and friends here.
Now I feel like I am home, for the first time in a long time, truly home, except for Jason not being here. I mean, we have both of our families here, I have old friends I've gotten close to again, new friends (Hi Sharon and Pat!) and I've opened myself up a lot to people, IRL and online. Now we are going to move 1 1/2 - 2 hours away, and I am going to be vulnerable. I'm going to be alone. Sure I'll have Jason, but he's going to be working full-time and going to school starting in the fall (YEAH FOR MY DH, love you babe!), and I have the boys, but E will be in school in the fall all day and A wants to go to preschool so badly (he's loving school right now!). And I won't have any friends to talk on the phone with, invite over, go out for a girls' night on short notice, get a babysitter on a weeknight/weekend for an hour or two so Jason and I can go out to dinner once in a while. Right now, we have it so good, his 'rents and sis live across the street, mine across town along w/ my sis living halfway across town. We can call on them day or night, whether its just for a babysitter or an emergency (Alex's accident...) and rely on them. We have friends that will help us at a moment's notice. I think that's why I'm scared. I'm afraid of the unknown. I'm afraid about the what ifs. What if A or E gets hurt and Jason's at work and I can't drive cause I need to help them? I know, ambulance. but what if I panic and can't think straight because of the worry in my mind. That's what happened the other day. I froze for a second, after grabbing Alex, then my keys. I just wanted to help him feel better and calm him, but I couldn't do that and drive! What if something happened to me while Jason's at work, or on a deployment out of town, or school out of town? Right now, E could run across the street and get help if he couldn't remember 911 for some reason. Up there, if HE froze up, or was scared or panicked or started crying uncontrollably, he wouldn't be able to call and get help. at all. and Alex doesn't know how to use the phone yet. I've tried to teach him, we are working on it.

Ok, time to breathe. See I told you! Ok, so this is the most heart-spilling, open post I've ever written, but it's thoughts that run through my head, it's things I've been worrying about and now it's out there. Thanks for reading this far and "listening".

I feel much better now. Really. I do.

So anyway. House for sale, one offer, one counter, if they agree we shall see! We would close the end of July if they like the counter and the House passes inspection.